writing a letter of resignation is kind of difficult. I’m used to writing things that require elaboration and supportive statements, which makes writing this letter feel like it’s turning into a paper or something. As much as I’m looking forward to leaving my job, and as much as I have complained endlessly about it, I have been there for 4 years after all. my co-workers are awesome people and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit sad about not being able to see them on a regular basis anymore. anyhow
my shift for today was written on the work schedule as 4:00 – ?
that is perhaps the most daunting thing i’ve seen in a little bit. I’ve decided that it’s much more difficult for me to find a part time job near my house than I had anticipated it to be. I don’t plan on working during my internship that starts in september, because even though it’s unpaid and I’ll probably be pretty poor, it’s also a very very important part of my education. I know I’ll find it difficult to concentrate on it if I was working at the same time. I want to do as well as I can with this internship and I’m also pretty nervous about it, so cutting down on unwelcome distractions will probably help me a lot. My plan now is to quit Sears on July 29th. First I thought I would make August 1st my last day, but the Lantern Festival is the 30th of July and I’ve been going to it annually for a few years and I really really love it a lot. Maybe this is a silly reason to quit a few days early but I can justify it. Unemployment is going to be so strange. If it’s still not sunny and warm by then I will probably cry.
i’m home and i feel weird. 10 days is not a very long time at all. it’s like a blink within a month, immeasurably small in the total of a year or anything larger than that. but i still feel like it was an important and significant trip. it was my first time travelling by myself. i almost missed my flight from st. john’s but my flight home from Montreal was mostly insignificant in terms of stressful things happening. with the help of two old friends and a newer one i made my way to and through the airport and onto my plane. night time flights are weird because everyone is sleeping and no one tries to make chitchat with their seat mates. the only time i talked to the man in the suit sitting beside me was when i let him into his seat and when the lights on in the plane were turned off. i had been reading my book and closed it because it was too dark and i couldn’t see the words anymore. he switched on the overhead light for me and i mumbled a shy “thanks” and kept reading until we reached home.
i came home to beer spills in the living room and the light from the kitchen ceiling was on the table. but there was also a note on my door from Cindy saying that she gave Charlie some extra food to tie him over during the day, until i got home in the night. charlie was sitting in the porch when i got him, so i scooped him up and danced him around until he couldnt put up with it and wiggled free of my hug.
my friends’ apartment is spacious and sunny and i envy many aspects of it. i’m going to miss christine a lot, i wish she could come visit when shannon is here in two weeks or so. im excited for her to come home. I’m glad that they both take lots of pictures because while i took about 30, it might be a while before i ever get those developed.
I leave to go on my Montreal trip in a week and one day. I’m trial packing my carry-on because i’m very very nervous about flying by myself. the buttons on my jacket are metal and i know i’m going to set off the alarm and they’ll have to scan me and i’m pretty scared. I’m not much of a fan of being scanned by scary airport security. I’m only bringing a carry-on because the thought of losing my luggage, or having to navigate through the airport and the bus with a suitcase makes me very nervous. i’m also worried that Charlie will escape while i’m gone. he’s been lurking the kitchen windows lately, and meowing at the world outside
i’m also very very excited. i will hopefully get to see the biodome! and more importantly, the lovely faces of two wonderful ladies that i often miss seeing and miss living with. i’m excited for $2 falafel and french canada and warmer weather
i have so much to look forward to right now. some are smaller things and some are bigger things. some are really soon and some are not for a few months or so. i’m so excited about a lot of life’s little things and i’ve got a lot of hope.
one of the things i’m dreaming about and looking forward to
i hope she is this incredible at the folk festival in August
it’s mother’s day today! i wish someone in my family would start having babies so i could become an aunt already
i woke up earlier than usual this morning because the sun was shining in through the slits in the screen in my window. this has been happening kind of often lately and i don’t mind it at all, not even a bit.
So here is what I have so far for my summer list for the months of May – the beginning of September.
01. Go to Lantern Festival
02. Make a lantern
03. Read books that I own but haven’t read yet
04. Paint my room
05. Take pictures while I’m in Montreal
06. Learn how to ride a bicycle
07. Go to Fort Amherst
08. Grow something! (flowers, peas, carrots etc)
09. Make a cherry pie
10. See a meteor shower
11. Have bbqs
12. Read outside
13. Visit my cabin
14. Quit my job
15. Get my zither tuned
16. Play my instruments
17. Add something to the paintings that are on our fence
18. Make curtains for the bathroom
19. Buy ice cream from jackman and greene’s
20. Go camping
21. See the sunrise on Signal Hill
22. Explore something abandoned
23. Go to the folk festival and see Basia Bulat
that’s all I have so far. I tried to think of a few new things and i’ll probably add a few more things to it as summer progresses